One of the things I’m learning about myself through this work is that the healing never stops. Yes, I had a miraculous healing last summer and I came back from the brink, but that doesn’t mean there isn’t more healing to do, and more yet to come.
I was thinking about this last night, as I’d been feeling less than stellar all week, and was a bit resentful, frustrated and angry about that. With healing comes new awareness about personal responsibility and so I thought about what I’d been doing this last week that might have contributed to how I was feeling. I’d just had a really fun (but brief) relationship end and I felt hurt and rejected…and I realized last night how I manifest physical symptoms when things are going on with me emotionally or mentally. And from internalizing my emotions about what happened, I started eating much less healthily and drinking a bit of alcohol, which I have very little tolerance for. And I wasn’t sleeping very well or exercising much.
In the past, I would have continued down a painful slide towards ill health and increasing pain. But I don’t want that kind of life anymore. And so I reminded myself to say NO to the pain and to keep in mind that what I have committed to with Reconnective Healing, is to bring light and information onto the planet. The information flows through me from the Universe and the light in me grows ever stronger. That’s what I’m here to share—who I am, what I have come through, and a commitment to help others experience their own glory.
So I say it again…NO to the pain. Yes to trust and love. Yes to life.
It’s so much sweeter this way…
©Maria K. Benning, M.Ed., FPRH